My new beginnings are in response to my understanding that I am becoming single and will not have any support and companionship, at least for the time being. So, what will my new beginnings look like knowing this.
Most importantly I have decided to not dwell on the negative of my situation and to work towards finding the most positive way forward. To build a new friend group and find new companionship.
Since surviving my major medical event, my reflections have included such thoughts as “What now?” and “Have I missed something in life that I should seek out now?” and “Have I made the right choices?”. These are now important questions in my life.
So, how can I address the “What now?” of my new beginnings. Well, I think that I need to become an explorer. To go and live with my extended play for time here in this word. I no longer am afraid to challenge myself in a way that danger is present, but catastrophe shouldn’t happen if I mess up. And by challenges, I mean like riding my mountain bike on trails down the side of a mountain. Going skiing in the winter and maybe doing a little jump here and there. And other challenges that raise my adrenaline a bit, but not too much.
And how can I address the “Have I missed something in life that I should seek out now?” of my new beginnings. This is an interesting dilemma for me because any answer I consider changes my past in ways that could delete the children I have had and form a part of my life that is important to me. Maybe with this new extension of time I could experiment with things I did not do in the past and of my own choosing.
And also, the question of “Have I made the right choices?”. Probably not on many occasions. But then I remember that the choices I have made cannot be changed, they can only be addressed and possibly adjusted in the future with this next chapter in my life.
So, these are my first thoughts towards my new beginnings. I will edit them as time goes on and as I discover more about what My New Beginnings become.
Wish me luck…