I guess now that I have started my therapy sessions, I will begin to learn more about me. So, as I begin to dig into my past memories and experiences, what I recall as I write should help me better understand all of my remembered experiences of my younger years, and what they may have contributed to my life in the building of who I became from an early age. My age of innocence and exploration was short lived. As I write and share with you my younger life story through my memories, you will read that before my 17th birthday I had already experienced so many challenges and so much pain that to this day I am surprised and amazed that I am still here.
And while writing this initial thought of exploring my past, I would like to say that from what I remember so far of my experiences in my younger years is this: I wish that no child, pre-teen, young teen, or young coming-of-age adult should ever experience some of the darkness that I have experienced. It is not right, and it is not fair. Thankfully, the good memories from my past has built the strength of my character.
If someone asked you about your younger memories, what would you think of first, and how far back do your memories go. Memories can become very interesting as you recall them, or they can be very challenging if they are coated with emotional incursions that have been hurtful. Some memories just stop at a very specific moment of that memory and there is nothing beyond that moment. That part of the memory has become lost forever. I think we all have some of those lost and forgotten memories. And that may be a good thing.
So, I have many memories with a variety of experiences that cover the full range of being beautiful, happy, crazy, fun, challenging, and dark. As I work to write down these memories to share with you, I will be very aware of the edits that I most likely will need to do in an effort to keep the worst of the memory edited out. I do not need to express any details in my memories that do not need sharing. And some memories might include the emotions I am experiencing while writing them.
As I write about my memories I will share them in a somewhat chronological timeline so you can begin to understand how each memory has layered on top of the other forming my younger character including my competitive nature and my shyness with others. Everything that happened in my younger years has helped me become the person who doesn’t quit when challenged in life. My hope is that learning about my past through my memories helps you to realize that we, as humans, do have inherent strengths that we can seek out to help us become stronger with a willingness to help others overcome their challenges and achieve their dreams. Who we are is most important to the others we meet in life. Our strengths are transferable.
As I finish writing this piece, I want to conclude with a positive reinforcement of how I have grown. Even though I know that I have experienced some challenging and dark times, I have learned that my memories of the beautiful, the happy, and the crazy good fun times I have lived will always outweigh the others. I did not surrender my life to the darkness. I have always found a way to keep going forward into the unknown. I would say that you too can recall your memories in all of their context and emerge with a much better and brighter outcome like I have done. Always build on the good experiences in life. My new beginnings journey, like yours, is a continuation of new memories that will build the road that our journeys will travel. Remember, together in thought we can travel safely down the road of life.
Enjoy the journey…
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